thought it was a dream, but it wasn't

yesterday i been playing with my mobile as usual. Then it happened. I got that long-awaited message from my best friend as we been apart for near 2 weeks after a silly fight. But the message wasn't a reconciliaion after that fight. Her father passed away leaving her mother and younger sister alone. I couldn't even read that remaining message from her friend.I been thrown into some kind of darkness with the fearness about her coming days and remaining life. I can only pray for her,to recover from those unexpected shocks God gave. It again made me think about the drama's happening in lives everday. There weren't much of dramatic events around me for some time and i thought its gone. But the hope was short lived. she been an elder sister for me,yet not matured to start a life of her own. Some of frequent breakups have taken all of her energy remaining. The sleepless night, spending all time sitting near to the wall in the corner of my bed i been searching for a reason "why such bad things always happen to her."

Listen Up ..........!!!

Quoted from pratiba sofat's blog:

"Hey girlie,

now listen up..

You love him,

he doesnt.

dnt love him,

don't hate him.

It happens.

Hey dearie,

listen up,

He loves you,

you don't.

don't sympathise,

don't criticize.

It happened.

Hey sweety,

listen up,

Love is magical,

love is a curse.

Love heals

after love hurts.

Its Love.

Hey lady,

listen up.

You love,

you lose,

you give up,

or move.

Its life."

Best Friends

We have formed a friendship
That has become invaluable to me
We discuss our futures and plan our ways
We can talk about our dreams
And share our fears
We can be very serious
Or we can just have fun
We understand each others lives
And try to encourage each other
In all that we do.

I Like to Think of You

I like to hold a thought of you close to me...
in a special place where I can pull it out
to bring a touch of cheer to my day.
I like to think about all the things you’ve
done to show that you care, and the many
ways you have of turning a nice time into
a wonderful occasion.
I like to think of you...
because you’re one of those people
who really helps to make my world
a richer and a happier place.

A Special Person

Beautiful eyes, a tender heart
And a smile that’s very sweet
Before you came into my life
It was so incomplete

You always make me happy
You make my world go ‘round
In anything we do together
Joy is sure to be found

I just want you to know
And hope that you can see
You’re a very precious person
That God has shared with me

“What is it in us that seeks the truth? Is it our minds or is it our hearts? “

Did You ever have a dream that had such a big impact on you?
What did You want to be when you grew up? Did you pursue it? Why or why not?
Are You happy with the career you chose or would you rather be doing something else?If so, what?

 

Broken Dreams

Inspired from my favorite writer.....

Now every night I get some weird dream.
Always its there, even when I’m awake.
There is something wrong with it.
But always it has one thing at a time.
Once a good girl, once a devil
The girl had a special look,
Her eyes reflects the determination she have.
I can feel it strengthening me, when I look into her eyes.
Another day there were silent weepings thrown at me.
As if a woman make when she lost something beautiful than her life.
Once it caught a glass full of wine, before it caught my own heart.
There were faded darkness all over.
Today I was shocked to see a familiar face staring at me,
like she never seen me before. I swear her eyes were bright.
An empty black bag. I tremble before I collapse.
I threw my dreams away down to the streets. It burst into pieces.
I killed it. Now it doesn’t comeback with those weird false images.

PS – “Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.”

Betrayal

Have you ever seen flowers in any heart, Not everyone see this.
Red roses dipped in dark red blood, blood covered all over it.

Trusting someone is not foolishness, but being blind in love is.
When you are blind you want to see everything and you feel everything.
But it never lasts long. Ever you won’t reach that far to see
The flower inside heart when blind.

I can't live this way

As I cross today’s hurdle…Thousands are waiting me.
I’ve got the courage to cross each one of them. I may even try to do.
But I don’t have any reason to go on like this.
Someone is shouting “Cease living….!"
 
   I…I’ve lost ma aim…..Mission aborting process initialised ;)).

Nobody's Listening...

I tried to tell everybody loud and clear,
But nobody’s listening, everyone is in their own world.
They never try to hear what I’ve to say.
They just assume everything
I tried so hard but again in the end I lose before their act of avoiding.

In the middle of my favorite month

     Just wasting time waiting for HL:EP3 to come...I hope it 'll happen atleast in coming months. I never believe Valve...

Life on the edge of extinction...

      Ok now talking about other things...I been losing everything from the start of this month...When i take count...i lost 5 of my best frnds to a status of just friends...~nice!~ It never makes me happy at night, when i'm alone...

       "Pursuit for happiness is not that easy as enjoying those happy moments.."




        Taking wrong turns never a rare thing, whenever you had a chance to go pass a busy junction.
        Its not that you take those deliberatley.
        Its too funny in the begining, when you didn't even realise it was not the direction meant for you...
        But when you think to change the lane, looking for a place to pull over for a while to correct ur mistakes...
        It takes a while and sometimes even a lifetime won't be enough.

        When life is at a low, You are never too far from death. And when you are having a good time with your otherwise ~beautiful~ life, you never like to bother about the presence of it.
        Though whatever you bother destiny never changes, unless you cheat.

                                                       Courtesy : My disturbed mind

Bright Stars

Last night, i been searching for a bright star among the millons. I seen lots of stars blinking at me, but none was too bright some got brightness, but not enough. Now i realised i was wasting my time, all the stars have same brightness. Different eyes sees them differently. Even both of my eyes saw them differently All the stars have something to say, but they all are hiding their stories. Then what's my search worth - what's my life worth

Searching for love

I want everyone to love me,
love me more than they do others.
Its not very difficult, you only have to put in little effort.
No one loves me,
Anyone can say the prima face reason for it,
But I'm here not to hear that.
Reasons may be plenty, LOVE me anyway

Walking over me

                                                                                           Dated 16 march 09
                                                                                           Night 2-am

She may say she've found a friend in me, but i realise, she is running away from me.
Everytime she talks, her words shouts at me "she no longer need me". But i know, its just because she have discovered - I'm just a piece of her own ideal.

                                          

Yet another Sleepless night

A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll ..

Pain Of My Lonely Nights..

Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range

There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry

A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll ..

Courtesy : My frnd